So... a lot has changed for me within the last few days. I have sent in my application for readmittance to Bethel - surprised? I am. I have done a lot of thinking and weighing of pros and cons, and I really feel this is my best option for getting my nursing school finished. I could begin in the Fall, apply to the nursing program in the Spring, and hopfully begin nursing classes next Fall. I have no doubt in my mind that had I stayed at Bethel originally, I would be done and working as a Nurse already. I understand this is totally out of nowhere.... But I really feel so driven and focused on my goal, I need to do whatever is best for me to get there. I will be insanely in debt. I understand this completely. But my time is more valuable, and I would so much rather spend the money and get started on my career than wait around for God only knows how many more years, praying to get accepted elsewhere. I have a lot more research to do on this, and I have many people that I need to talk to at Bethel. But my heart is in this, and I really believe this is the right thing for me to do.
This decision changes several things.... Nate and I were going to go to Fargo together and get an apartment. Now that it seems we will be staying, we will continue to live separately. My lease with Emily is up June 1st (our landlord needs our notice by April 1st), and she has been trying to find a different apartment with a friend. So I don't really know what to do with myself as far as housing. I have been looking at studio apartments, but I will end up paying more than I am now unless I want to live in the ghetto.... Which I don't. Plus, I will probably be working less as a full-time student. I don't even know if I could qualify on my own to rent a new place. And I can't stay here by myself - wayyyyy to expensive for me alone. Of course my mom and dad still want me to move home.... I just don't know how I could make that work for me anymore. Plus my dad is allergic to Belly. : ( My life feels very up in the air right now. Anyone have any solutions for me? I am open to suggestions!
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So glad you are staying near by. Hope that your plans for Bethel will all work out. Life's decisions are not always easy. I know you will make a fabulous, caring nurse. About the apartment........ if you and Nate were going to live together up North, why not here?????
ReplyDeleteLove you, gramma
Ugh. We talked about this already, but I just want to stress again how proud I am that you can just make these decisions that you feel are best for you. You have guts, and I know things will work out for you in the best way possible. Character building, right?
ReplyDeleteThanks again for yesterday. I miss you already!